Knew it

So here is the latest about Marcy. So if you remember I had the mustache and the mullet pretty much the entire time I've been talking to Marcy. I had it when we went on our date, I had them when she told me she was interested in me. Anyways I haven't talked to Marcy for a few days. She's been down in Las Vegas for Thanksgiving and I've been up in Idaho. Anyways she starts texting me tonight and I learned something funny. We had been texting for a while and then the conversation goes like this

Marcy: So do you still have the mullet

Wesley: Why would I get rid of it

Marcy: Nevermind

Wesley: What?

Marcy:Nothing haha

Wesley: No it was something :) What are you thinking that you aren't saying?

Marcy: Your chances are slim

Wesley: At you being interested?

(No response)

Wesley: Well thank you for being honest and telling me that you aren't interested. ( I really was being sincere. I like when a girl is straight up)

Marcy: Well it's just that if I'm interested in you and someone else. You having a stash and mullet really turns me off so the other guy looks better.

Wesley: It's kinda why I do it. I figure if a girl likes me for me than great. If she can't like me for more than how I look than I'm really not interested.

Marcy: Oh okay

(Then because I've gotten rid of the 'stache and mullet I figured I should tell her so she didn't see it Monday and think I did it because of her)

Wesley: And I'll tell you this now so you don't think I did this because of this conversation but I got rid of the stache and mullet a few days ago.

Marcy: Oh what! See I thought it was weird how on our date you were so against it and then you were like I love it now

Wesley: Oh I never loved it. I thought it was funny how people treated me different because of it. I'm still the same person but even you judged me for it.

Now maybe I was too harsh but I have a hard time when a girl doesn't want to date me just because she doesn't agree with how my hair looks. I'll be the first to admit that looks are important but they aren't everything and if you are interested in someone you should get to know them and like them for their personality and not for how they look. Prognosis as of now? I'm not too interested in Marcy. Mheh there are tons of good looking girls out there. Why would I waste my time with someone so shallow?

Curse living in Rexburg

So this weekend I went down with my family to Provo to watch the BYU - Air Force game. It was fun for me to head back to BYU and be there in that game day atmosphere. I won't lie, I missed Provo like crazy. The game wasn't the best because it wasn't close but it was fun. BYU won of course and I had a great time. Then I went to Sizzler and stuffed my face. My belly hurt a little after but it was sooooo good.
My big complaint with the whole deal was that I don't live in Provo. I had forgotten how many good looking girls live there. When I was there before I was dating a girl I'd been dating for three years and she lived next door to me so I wasn't really interested in all the girls. But being down there yesterday and being single was a different story. I saw quite a few good looking girls. There were probably 3 girls I would have gotten numbers from and I had to catch myself because I remembered that I didn't live there and I really wasn't feeling up to driving 4 hours to go on a date. As fun as that sounds, I'll pass. The one that worked at Sizzler was the hardest to pass on because she was very attractive and was down with flirting.
Don't get me wrong, there are attractive girls in Rexburg too. But being that there are more girls who attend school in Provo, it stands to reason that there are more attractive girls as well. But I think they have a better ratio of good looking girls to non-good looking girls anyways. Guess I'd better transfer back down to Provo.

Chat

So I got I was on one of the blogs I read and I noticed Carrie had this cool chat thing on the side where people could talk to her anonymously. It took some searching but I found the right widget. Will people use it? We'll see. I'm guessing probably not so much. But I think it's cool anyways.

More about Marcy

So I took Marcy out on Monday. I didn't really get the vibe that she was into me. But we are in the same chemistry class so I told her that I'd help her study for our test that was today. So yesterday we go study together and she is really tired and kinda out of it because she's still on meds for cancer to make sure it doesn't come back. Still was getting the not interested vibe. She brought up some old boyfriends, one of whom she is going to stay with this weekend down in Utah. So pretty much I decided nothing would happen.
Then later last night we're chatting on facebook and I say to her that I get the impression she doesn't really have a problem getting guys. She said she has lots of guy friends but not so much in the boyfriend department. I asked her why not and she said that either she wasn't interested when they liked her or they weren't interested when she was. I told her that when she isn't interested in guys than she should just tell them and not ignore them cause guys hate that. Now when I said this I wasn't thinking about me I was just talking about in general. However, she responded by asking if I wanted her to be straight up with me right then. So I said sure but I told her I probably knew what she was going to say. She said that she was interested but she was a interested in another guy too but that I shouldn't give up hope.
So this is my thing, I should be happy right that she is interested. But I'm not. I mean honestly, I don't want to hear that some attractive girl is interested in me and some other guy. It kinda seems like she wants me to fight to get her but here's the deal. I don't really know all that much about her. If I knew her and liked her than maybe I'd fight for her. But it doesn't really seem to me like it's worth my time to waste time trying to win some girl who doesn't know who she wants to pursue. So I'm thinking I'm not going to waste a bunch of time on her. I've invited her to do some stuff and she never takes me up on it so while she is attractive, there are plenty of other good looking girls here for me to find.

I just had to rub it in

So about a month ago, my roommates and I all decided to grow out mustaches. Yes we realize that 'staches are completely disgusting and we would be viewed as child molesters. However, it's kinda fun to have girls look at you and dry heave just because you don't shave your upper lip. So we all started.
After about two weeks one of my roommates was whining about how he hadn't gotten a date in 2 weeks cause of his mustache. So me being a smart-a that I am made the audible observation that he hadn't asked a girl out for two weeks. He said he didn't feel like he could with the 'stache on his face. A few days after that both of my other roommates doing the 'stache thing wussed out and shaved off the 'stache. But I kept mine.
A question that a lot of my friends have been asking me is why would I grow one if I know that it's gross. Well at first it started as a joke with my roommates. Now that they quit why don't I shave? To be honest I think it's wicked funny that I look so gross. I get to see my little sister, who I'm really close to, on Saturday for the first time in over 3 months. She absolutely hates when I do the mustache. So I have to hold out strong until then.
To make matters worse, about two weeks ago I decided if I was going to be trashy looking I may as well trash it up some more. So I cut my hair into a mullet. Not going to lie, I put on a cut off, a trucker hat, and some aviators and I look like a complete perv. I'd be lying if I said I didn't almost gag when I see myself in the mirror. But I'm determined to hold out strong until I see my sister and the family for Thanksgiving. But I digress.
After coming home from my date with Marcy on Monday, I came home and went in my roommates room. I told him to look at me so he turns away from the computer and looks at me and he looks and me and asked what was up. So I had a wicked streak and I told him that even with a mustache and a mullet and getting over a cold sore, I still got a date with a beautiful girl. He didn't have anything to say so I pushed it further and said how even though he'd shaved he still hadn't gone on a date so maybe he should grow the 'stache back out and cut his hair into a mullet.
Now maybe it wasn't the nicest thing to do. Okay it definitely wasn't the nicest thing to do. But I sure thought it was freaking funny.

If you want to watch a funny music video about sexy 'staches check it out here.

Chloe

Chloe is a girl that I dated for a while and we got engaged. I was actually supposed to be getting married one month from tomorrow. Anyways we called it off about a month and a half ago. Since the time we had gotten engaged, things changed somewhere along the way and it just wasn't the same between us. Granted she was in St. George and I was up in Rexburg, it's a 7:30 hour drive, so I didn't see her too often. But I still managed to see her every other weekend to once every three weeks. But we'd talk on the phone every night and on video chat on skype a few nights a week. But being back in Rexburg without her and not being with her everyday made me realize that I didn't need her in my life in order to be happy. I could live without her. So we called it off because we both weren't feeling the best about it.
After a couple weeks we started talking again all the time and skyping it up so we could see each other and things seemed to be going really well. We were talking and enjoying talking to each other so I decided to make another trip down to St. George so that we could see if there was still anything between us. So last weekend I headed off to see if we could salvage a relationship. I won't lie, I was really hoping it would work out. I mean I still do love this girl. To put a long story short we ended up making out a bunch over the weekend but I didn't feel good about the whole thing. I told her that and she said it was okay. So the weekend was over and back to Rexburg I came.
Today she was talking to me on Skype and was a little ticked cause I didn't get on Skype last night. I had been really busy the night before and I explained it to her and she was okay. But then she asked if we were going to be talking every night or every other night. So I had a choice to make and I think I made the right one. I told her that when I was down there I was hoping that things would work out but that the spark was gone. The conversation went on for a bit and it ended well but we realized that it's over. It's not going to work.
Today was bittersweet. I hated having to tell her and hurt her like that but I felt like I needed to tell her so it wouldn't be like I was leading her on. I'm glad that she knows so that we can each start moving on but I really hate losing my best friend. I love her but it's for the best.

Seriously?

So last night I got on my computer to check my mail right before I went to be just like I do every night. I log in and immediately a girl in my ward/fhe sister starts talking to me on chat. Now to background this conversation this girl and I hung out a lot and went on a couple dates, we made out a couple times but we talked about it and realized that neither of us were really interested in dating so that was it. Last night this is the conversation that took place.


Sarah: hey, can i ask you a question?

Wesley: Yeah sure shoot

Sarah: ok, here is my question.... are you embarased by me?

Wesley: Why would I be embarrassed by you?

Sarah: i dunno. you don't say 'hi' or talk to me and when i'm around you don't look at me

Wesley: Well to be honest it's a little weird being around you

Sarah: explain why

Wesley: Well you are completely different than you seemed at first when I met you.

Sarah: how?

Wesley: Well at first you were this girl who seemed like everything I looked for in a girl. You were cool and funny and fun to be with and easy to talk to. Now you aren't easy to talk to and you are quite a bit different than I am.

Sarah: ok.... well, i'm sorry. i don't think i've changed. the whole talking thing is the same for me to you too and ya, i am different, we're different ppl.

Wesley: I'm going to be honest. Your friends are just different than me and to me seem a little weird. I'm sure they are great for you but you would always invite them over when you'd come over to see us and my roommates and I always felt weird having them in our apartment all the time and having you invite them along to everything

Sarah: ok, i got that, and i'm sorry. so... we can't be friends cuz i'm weird and i have weird friends?

Wesley: Well we can be friends but people tend to hang out with other people like themselves. And like you said, we are different

Sarah: everybody is different. what are yur expectations of people?

Wesley: Yeah but my and I have a lot of similarities. Similar backgrounds and interests. We have similar habits and just similar in general. We generally act a lot alike because we are so similar. And I don't know what you mean by expectations of people.

Sarah: so, i should be sorry for having friends and not from (city)and i'm sorry that me or my brother don't meet yur expectations

Wesley: No you don't have to be sorry for anything. And I have plenty of friends who aren't from (city). And they have friends too. I'm not trying to attack you. I promise. You asked so I'm explaining.

Anyways, you get the gist of the conversation. She asked me why we didn't hang out more and I told her. I was open and honest with her and she tried to make me seem like a terrible person because of it. The good news is, I really didn't care that she was trying to piss me off. But here are a few things that bother me about this girl.

1. That conversation was exactly as it happened last night. It was really hard typing as she does and not using punctuation or capitalization. Also using ppl instead of people? Talk about annoying. I'm just one of those people who think we should try to use decent grammar. I use punctuation and capitalization when I text. It's just something I do.

2. When two people start dating it makes sense to not invite family along every time you do something right? At least that is what I think. Every time we hang out or do something she always wants to know if her brother or his roommate or her roommate can come too. One time my roommates and I were making dinner and we invited Sarah to come over and eat with us. She says yes and then comes back a minute later and asks if her roommate can come too. So she ends up bringing her roommate and her brother over. When we watch movies, somehow her weird friends always end up at our apartment. I'm not really a fan.

3. I realized after we started hanging out a lot that Sarah really doesn't put any effort into how she looks. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a fan of high maintenance girls or people who care a lot about what they look like but you have to care somewhat what you look like. I mean brush your hair for Pete's sake. Maybe I'm shallow but where I put a little care into making sure I don't look like a complete slob I kinda expect the same from a girl.

Anyways this probably doesn't make any sense because I'm writing this in class but there's my story for the day.

Marcy

So I could waste your time and tell you about all these great drama stories from the past involving girls but I won't waste time because they are no longer important even if they are funny. But the newest girl is named Marcy. Okay so no, Marcy isn't her real name but the name really doesn't matter.
So Marcy is in my Chemistry class. I noticed her the first day of class because she is very attractive. I found this great rating system on Mormon Bachelor Pad for rating girls and I think I'll use it. To see the rating system click here. Actually I don't know if that link will work. I'll check it later. Anyways, Marcy got a 7 on the LOS from the first day. I never talked to her though because she sits on the other side of the room, I'm a chicken, and the opportunity just never arose. But she's attractive so I definitely noticed her. About a week ago my buddy and I had noticed she'd been gone for a few days and then she was back and she had a mask on. One of those ones you wear if you don't want to get sick. My buddy points out that she looks like Shredder from the Ninja turtles. I've seen this show maybe twice (gasp I know) but I had to agree because she did. So after class I am leaving and for once we happen to be leaving at the same time. So I say to her "hey Halloween was a week and a half ago. You should have dressed up as Shredder from the ninja turtles then." Definitely not smooth. Oh well. She replied saying she should have. So I ask her why she really had the mask on. Now I figured that she just didn't want to get the swine flu. She told me that she didn't have an immune system because she has cancer. Talk about stop me in my tracks. I had no idea what to say to that. Luckily she got distracted talking to someone else so I made my hasty escape out of the room.
So a week or so passes and I decide that I was going to ask her out the next day in class. I have a plan and I'm ready. So I get to class and she isn't there. So my plan is ruined. But I really wanted to get her to go to a thing with me. So there are over 300 Marcys who go to school here so it took a while to find on facebook which one she is. I added her as a friend. She accepts the friend request and we started chatting. So as lame as it is I asked her out over chat and she said yes so we went on a date.
We went to this thing here on campus where students play their own music they've written. It was alright but nothing too great. So we left early and went and talked. It was fun. I don't know if there will be another date. But it was fun. Oh side note. While I was talking to her on facebook I started to look at her pictures online. She goes up to an 8.5 after seeing a picture of her in a bikini. Marcy's body is smokin'.

A little bit about me

Well I figure to kick this whole thing off I'd better tell a little bit about me. First off, I'm a kid born on a farm in Idaho. If that isn't enough to make you realize this won't be that exciting, I don't know what will. I was born and raised Mormon. Growing up I kinda fell away from the church and didn't really go or went only to appease my parents. But during my junior year of high school I decided to go on a mission after I graduated. So after high school I moved to Provo and went to school at good old BYU for 6 months. Did the mission thing for a while, came home and now I go to school in Rexburg, Idaho. Where there are even more rules than at Provo. But the good news is that there seems to be more of a medium here. Fewer die hard party people and fewer "I'm such a good Mormon I make you want to throw up every time you see me."
That last sentence should have given you an idea as to where I stand on the Mormon-o-meter. If being Mormon were to be compared to political stance (and I guess I'm comparing it now) with being a goody goody Mormon on the far right and people who claim Mormonism yet party it up whenever they get the chance on the far left, I'm somewhere just left of center. I'm no Peter Priesthood by any means nor do I fornicate all the time. I believe the church to be true. I just struggle finding the motivation to follow all the commandments. Also I'm decidedly weak and I get tempted way to easily. I've been in the bishop's office to repent more than my fair share of times. That's about it. I'm really not that exciting. But it's a start. When I think of some more to type up than I guess it'll be time for the next post.